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to my ever dearest you....

Tuesday, July 5, 2011 | 11:45 AM | 1 Comment(s)

I'm missing all those days when we are together. we did almost the same things. although i might be some kind of doesn't-ever-care-person in the past years back, i regretted it most! and now i'm thinking of coming back to school, and making our friendship running better. i might be the-black-sheep in the crowd, because i realized sometimes i don't even like taking all your counsel with me.

I was like living my own life. i was, at that time, acting cool in every moments and matter. but, i'm always crying inside. torn apart inside. it's hurt. hurt to live by myself, controlled my someone. doesn't want to be controlled, myself , but it's a fate. you know, sometimes you've the feeling of fighting again yourself, and it's the biggest fight you will have.

i'm so sorry! if i don't be like the one you want me to be.

i'm so sorry! if i don't do the things that you want me to do.

i'm so sorry! if i don't tell you anything that you want to know.

i'm so sorry! if you are still worry what i do today.

And NOW!!

i'm just want you to know, i'm making myself stronger now. and just think that the events in the past were to make me appreciate what i was not. don't worry, okay? i have Allah with me, insyaAllah, no matter what. and i also have the Love Letter's Compilation (the Ultimate Al-Quran) to guide me in everything i do, even if i don't have anyone else to rely on.

the only things remains...

i still can't talk to people about my problems. i don't know. it's quite hard to let someone know about the problems i'm having of. if i'm sharing you something, it's just like i only throw up only one pieces of problems whereas the rest thousand pieces still be kept safely in my safe. lame, eh?

but the truth is...

WE are together because i can see that BK had change for good. believe that BK. believe me also! and pray for us. i want to forgive everyone, so that others will forgive my mistakes too.

lastly,

i love you! don't want to lose you. even we'r busy with our own business, but deep in my heart i'm always remember you're my best-est friend i ever have during the school days, because you're the one i can see care me the most, even if you're not, in fact.

i don't need words to express,

i don't need tears to shed,

i don't need to ask for a smile,

Or a hand to hold me,

all i need is...

to be your friend forever!

but my biggest fear is that..

one day, we will past each other on the street,

and have an artificial conversations.

.:thanks for the friendship u give:.

this one is specially written to Nurizziani & Nurul Fazilah.

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